Thursday, March 10, 2011

Ants in my Plans

A few days ago some very tiny unexpected house guest showed up and took over my little teacup chahuahua's food bowl. The more I try to get them out of my bathroom so little Peyton can eat in peace the more they show up messing up my happy plans. I'm talking about tiny very tiny little sugar ants. And speaking of that, I don't know who decided they were sweet enough to be called sugar, because they are certainly not being sweet to me or my little precious puppy Peyton Bear. So here we are every morning washing out her food bowl hoping that she eats all her food up before those little rascals decide to come take over each day. I've tried everything to divert them from having their on way around my bathroom. I've used straight Pine Sol all over the bathroom floor. This worked GREAT for a few days and then they were back roaming all around doing what they felt like doing. So I have started smearing them right in their tracks when I see them, but it's not realistic that I spend the rest of my life stuck in my bathroom killing sugar ants because they won't take a hint that I don't want them in there. Interesting thing happened to me this morning in the bathroom as I cleaned up Peyton's bowl added fresh food and water and started to get myself ready for work. I saw a tiny sugar ant running around my bathroom sink. But instead of killing it this time my mind began to compare that little tiny ant to me, to us.
What if God saw us as we see little ants? What if God watched from way up high as we like ants run all over His plans? What if God saw us running around doing what we want to do never giving any thought to what God's desires might be for us? When I get honest with myself and with you I am that little sugar ant sometimes. Just doing my thing and not stopping to ask God if I'm on the right track or if my happy plans are lining up with His plans for me. So as my mind started making comparisons between me and this tiny little ant I started thinking how very frustrated this ant makes me and how very frustrated I often must make my God. But unlike me and my smearing ant finger, God doesn't wipe me out when I aggravate Him. I'm thankful because I would have been smeared out a long time ago. No, God sometimes toughly sometimes gently urges and guides me to make better choices and decisions to lead me into his loving plans. Job 34:21 For God watches how people live; He sees everything they do. (NLT).

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Undeserved compliment

Happy Tuesday to anyone that have stopped by the Grill. I'm so glad you have chosen to give me a few minutes of your time. I would be so excited to hear from you today. Leave me a comment if you have a moment.
I'm going to share a wonderful compliment I received today.

I just wanted u to know that i think u have the love of Christ beaming out of u...ur slow to anger, non judgemental, u don't talk ugly about people and u love everyone and find the best in them... ur a beautiful person... it is very intimidating for those of us who struggle with those i think ur very special and i could learn from you!

I am positive this is the most beautiful compliment I could ever be given. I mean it is the type of compliment a woman could live her whole life and never hear. But it was spoken today and to me! What a normal Tuesday to have such a blessing of a compliment to come my way for no special reason at all. And the craziest part is for a brief moment I was basking in the warm fuzzy feeling I had just reading over the compliment from my blackberry phone. It came from a dear friend of mine and I'm convinced my heart was racing with excitement for several seconds at the thought that this compliment was for me. Then it happened... then I realized that this warm fuzzy compliment is undeserved, that I'm not worthy of such beautiful attributes to be spoken about me. What a sour taste for a girl who had racing heart with warm fuzzys. Why can't I just take the compliment, hold it, linger over it, enjoy it, and graciously smile and say thank you. I did say thank you, I did smile through my tear filled eyes, but the reality is this beautiful compliment was not really for me. It's for the person I desire to be. It's for the person I pray God will grow me into, it could be for the very small snip-its of brief short moments that I do allow Jesus to guide me into making the right choice when I really want to make the wrong choice. That compliment was for the me I long to be. Not for the me that I am. I'm so far away from the person the compliment implies that I am. But then. But then Jesus is always with me, dwelling in my heart waiting for me to step aside and let Him move me, mold me, make me who I can be through Him. Phil 4:13 I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me.
So I say with humble heart YES I will hold that compliment deep in my heart and smile, not because of the woman I am but because of the woman I desire to be through my Jesus.
And to my dear friend who chose to share such a wonderful compliment with me today, you are truly a blessing to me. I love you lady and you and your family are so important to all of us at the Walker house.
Thank you for stopping by the grill and sharing with me on this wonderfully normal Tuesday.